Paper Collage and other rambleings

Posted on July 12, 2009 by emerald

Well I am unsure of how to photograph this piece………. It sure does not look anything like it does in person.

The center has Desiderata written in a circle.

There is an art show next weekend and I am pretty sure I am going to go in it and put this piece in.

And……… day 28 sugar free for me. This whole business of feeling like I am new in recovery is amazing.

I know that if I continue to do the writing and the meetings online ; and going to Orillia when I can to a face to face meeting, I will continue on this same path.

Walking really needs to continue. I had been walking 3 times a week for two weeks then it rained for a week which plays havoc with my Fibromyalgia, so my goal this week is to walk at least 2 times. Keep moving, into the lightness of being ( for those who are into the light !!)

Listened to CHANGE YOUR THOUGHTS CHANGE YOUR LIFE ; Living the Wisdom of the Tao) today and the first verse of the Tao te Ching…….(which means the book of “the way” … the lesson is around “allowing” it’s about honouring the Great Mystery ( that some call God) and about letting go and letting God.

All of this sounds very familiar to me………..Wayne suggests One lesson a day. So I will add this to my daily’s.

Possiblilty Thinking

Posted on July 10, 2009 by emerald

I found this picture a while back on the web, and love it for it’s movement and excitement.

Today I think of possible changes that can be made. I have returned to the awareness that I have had my TV on – to get away from the noise around me. Using it for “white noise” when in fact there is nothing white about it. So the garbage that has been pouring into my psyche for the past few weeks has to stop now.

This week someone gave me a couple of CD’s by Spiritual teachers, and as I listen I begin to realize I just purchased the new Wayne Dyer series and have not listened DUH !!

The other realization is that I have always got my spiritual nourishment ( a lot of it) from listening to spiritual teachers. Beginning with Jack Boland and Marianne Williamson on to Wayne and others. Add the Soul Series that Oprah did and I can’t believe how far away I have gotten recently from all this.

And I need to back up and listen to Wayne’s previous series called Change Your Thoughts Change Your Mind, I think this is the missing piece. (for me)

The process of these realizations has been one of connecting the dots…………. change my thinking and the possibilities arise from that place.

The clearing of my mind, the clarity that is coming to me since stopping the sugar (26 days ago) is all connected also.
Being connected to God…………….. the light ………. the comforter

Today I am …….an Artist

Posted on July 8, 2009 by emerald

THIS PIECE WAS DONE BY A NATIVE ARTIST NAMED CARL RAY……….. I LOVE HIS WORK !!

today I am an artist……. I recently attended a Gallery where a paper artist absolutely was an inspiration to me. Because of my love for paper I am now trying to create my own Paper Collage.
and I will have a camera by the end of the week and will publish photos next week.
There is an Art Show on the 17th and 18th and so I would like to have some new work done by then.I traveled to Bracbridge this morning on a paper hunt…………. mulberry paper – none to be found here in Huntsville. Soon I will be out of this great “YES” glue and will need to hunt that down………on the internet.
I have to create to stay sane in this new noisy place I am living in…….. I realized yesterday that I have had the TV on for weeks; to drown out the pitter patter of heavy little feet. What is the lessen here ??
On the recovery side of life I am day 24 sugar free. And it feels so good !! and I have been listening to some CD’s that are keeping me in touch with the more Spiritual side of my life.

to blog or not to blog: seeing the LIGHT

Posted on July 7, 2009 by emerald

Well it does seem I have fallen into the realm of nothingness, in terms of my blogging.

I thought at the outset of this I would be writing about my art and my recovery. My recovery is ongoing and so I need to keep writing about all of it. Perhaps recovery is just another word for life and the growth we experience.

This month I have realized many things about my relationship with food. It never ceases to amaze me how things can be just below consciousness. On some level I have known that food had become a bit of a problem, the denial in that is; it had become a huge problem.
I stopped smoking 5 1/2 years ago and I see now that I switched addictions. So in fact became a food addict. My whole life was revolving around food, just like it had around cigarettes, just like it had around drugs and alcohol. Finally about 6weeks ago I bottomed out with sugar. I know what happens to my body when I consume things like ice cream. I bloat and all the horrible part is the sugar goes right through my system like somebody is shaking a can of pop.
And yet I would go “unconscious” and be gone to the store and be ingesting the stuff. And then once again go through the experience of it all.

Today is day 23 of no sugar !!! AND no junk food (chips etc.) No french fries, no drive thru, no white bread, no potatoes, no white pasta.

And so it is. My head is clearer. I feel more awake and more alive.

Do they really want to know

Posted on April 17, 2009 by emerald

When people ask how you are ………..do they really want to know?

Could they understand …… could they really grasp what is being said and not be too judgemental.

Are we really allowed to feel some very real emotions and not be told to ” get over it” …..

Perhaps that is why we don’t really tell folks how we are………….. Sunrise Sunset

In the Spirit of Love

Posted on March 14, 2009 by emerald

How fragile our hearts can be. My young friend Amanda has just had her heart broken. She is 16………. and I told her that her first love would always have a “little piece of her heart” and that’s ok.

I recently heard from my first love. He lives in Arizona, a desert rat? It stirred alot of memories but in reality I felt just confused as to the reason or point of the contact. It was really rather sad that when I did the math I was only 13 or 14 years old. More math ……….. I am 61.

Did I lie to Amanda or did the contact ruin the illusion that it was love.

I am grateful that I have known true love and that now I experience love in many different ways.

God’s love is demonstrated in my life daily. Through friends and family. I know that I am loved.

And my heart is light most days…………….so in the Spirit of Love I walk into today, asking to be led in the direction of the larger plan. And I pray that the God of my understanding helps me to see Love and be Love and recieve Love.

I ask to be of Service in some small way ……………

New Year Intentions

Posted on January 1, 2009 by emerald

I would think it’s more metaphysical to set an intention as opposed to a resolution.
To affirm what I want to happen and set the intention seems to fit for me at this point.
It is my intention to ask God to help me with all my plans and efforts in this year 2009.
Daily……… to ask each morning ( or whenever Spirit moves me) for help.
My lessons this past year have been around how powerless I am, over people, places and things.

I have worked on forgiveness of self and others.

I have realized that I am the only one who can change
my life and my life directions.

I have known friendship through the good works of others.

And I learn over and over that loss is a part of life and that life is on God’s terms.
And I am ok with all of the above.

Emerald Rose

Posted on November 14, 2008 by emerald

Another month, another birthday…………another move. Sometimes I feel I am just too old to have to pack up and move. I do know that once I get that first box packed I will be ok.

HOWEVER moving 6 times in the past 6 years just feels overwhelming. The good news is I am totally leaving this one up to God. I will pack, apply for the new place, rent a mover…….that’s the footwork.

I am “in the flow” of Spirit at this point. And teachings tell me that “this too shall pass” however if I am vigilant about spiritual practices, all will be well.

I am gratefull for the fall like weather today……..this past week, it will make winter so much shorter.

Really working at staying in the day, in the moment.

And gratitude for friends who care……………………

Forgiveness and Gratitude

Posted on October 29, 2008 by emerald

Out of the darkness and into the light I come asking for forgiveness, and being in the light of Graditude I can recieve.

Can we recieve forgiveness on a spiritual level without coming into contact with the person from whom we seek forgiveness?

I believe I can use prayer to achieve this and on a spiritual level the person receieves my prayer and intention.

I know that I am a precious child of a loving God and in that I am forgiven.

Om

Posted on October 21, 2008 by emerald

I have signed up for a 10 day Meditation Course at the Vipassana Centre. IT’S NOT TILL APRIL !!!

In the meantime I will go back to the wednesday meditation group here in Huntsville and do the once a month Sunday Day Long. This should help me prepare for the 10 day 10 hours a day that will be the challenge in April.

Everything I have ever read as I recovered from the first part of my life- has said MEDITATE……….

Wayne Dyer, one of my teachers has been teaching that for years. Yet I find myself doing everything else spiritually and pushing against formal meditation.

I can’t say I do not meditate at all …………. sometimes my life feels like a meditation. Being alone so much of the time and often in the silence of my space, the “chatter” quiets and I can receive…………. Sometimes during an art project I find that space also.

I am in a blank space in terms of my art. Wanting to do something new and not having the funds to go out and get supplies………..the term “starving artist” has to come out of the place where the artist would spend all money on supplies and always be broke because the desire to create was stronger than anything. Well that is not my – I do have a desire to create and am in a blank space however this too shall pass.

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