I am a book.
I choose to allow you to pick me up and look inside. I am not quite finished, so there is no need to look for a last page, it has not been written yet. I ask that you are gentle in your understanding of its contents.
The cover (as you can see if you look with love), was not always purple, it was black. The change was difficult however I like it much better now. The title on the cover is Esmeralda; it’s a magical story. The glitter that once dusted its cover has fallen away with time and wear. The witch’s hat in the corner confused me, before I knew the truth about witches.
I am a book; I have many chapters that will take you many places. Esmeralda is the main character and the dialogue is hers’ as she questions the Universe. Chapter one start’s out with one such question. Esmeralda is feeling like she was born into the wrong family, something isn’t right and she can’t understand what it is. Her questions to the Universe are these; “How can I be in the wrong family?” and “Am I a mistake?” No answer came from the Universe so Esmeralda lost herself in the flowers on the wall.
The next chapter begins with a move, “To the north” the father said and of course Esmeralda was too young to say no. This brought about her next question to the Universe, “Why can’t I say no, what kind of a Universe is this anyway no one sees what is happening and no one hears my silent no?”
For many years the Universe refused to answer, and so one day Esmeralda yelled as loud as she could, NO! NO! NO! And the only one who heard her was the father. He could not accept the No and sent Esmeralda away.
I am a book, with many chapters that are far too many to tell you about here. Esmeralda moved to a different place and changed her name. She had studied to be an Alchemist and did well to turn things into gold. She had two children for a while and then they disappeared.
Time passed and Esmeralda changed her name again and rebelled against the Universes’ plan for her to be an Alchemist. She sailed away on a ship …..her days became dark and she no longer questioned the Universe.
One day in a flicker of light Esmeralda remembered where her children were. She flew south to be close to them and vowed to never go north again.
The darkness was powerful and followed her; it called her to a place where she was to meet many dark souls.
She studied the darkness as if nothing else mattered, and the book you are holding contains many dark secrets from that time.
Twelve years flashed by and one day Esmeralda found a magic mirror. She was full of fear but dared to look into the mirror. As she looked she saw it was much lighter in the mirror and to her horror she saw she was forty years old and not twenty-eight as she had thought. Esmeralda screamed as loud as she could to the Universe, “HELP ME, HELP ME, HELP ME!!!”
And ……..Finally the Universe answered, “Your lessons in the dark are over, it’s time to live in the light”. Esmeralda was frightened and said, “But I don’t’ know how to live in the light”.
The Universe replied, “You have the magic mirror, you need only know that everything in a mirror is turned around. So go into the light and turn everything you learned in the dark around, it will work for you if you try.”
So Esmeralda stepped into the light!
I am a book about a good witch who lives in the light and tries.
It’s all about forgiveness…………letting go and letting things be.
Be what they are, be what they were. So many things get lost in translation. Taken out of context.
The children talk about only remembering the good times, and the things learned. How wonderful is that!
The mind and the heart always open, always forgiving us for our mistaken choices and choices made in another lifetime.
We all just need to do the next right thing, the next thing that God puts in front of us to do.
“if you knew who walked beside you” !!!!!!!!!!
(Picture from the Course in Miracles site )